Life is full of colors,
It brings different meaning to people.
Life to others is beautiful, wonderful and amazing;
And to others, it is cruel, harsh and miserable.

We may have a different outlook or meaning about life;
Always remember as the saying goes that, “Life is what we make it.”
We have lots of different experiences and challenges in life,
And that we have to face whatever life brings.
We should have to be thankful for the life that
our parents and God had given us.
For we only have ONE LIFE to live,
That is why we should love and treasure it. Let me tell you about the challenges in my life.

My life is like a roller coaster, full of ups and downs.
I had gone through different challenges, lot of different problems,
Different experiences there were good and bad, happy and sad, pain, tears, and there were smiles and laughter too. I have done lots of mistakes in the past,
That caused so much pain to family.
That is why they called me “The Black Sheep” amongst our siblings.
I had made wrong choices, wrong decisions in the past,
There were serious things that had been jeopardized
and put to serious matter because of my carelessness and by not taking things seriously.

I never thought that my carelessness would result to a serious problems
and issues at my present situation as well as my future  and my kids.
I never thought nor realized that my wrongdoings will cost
so much money and pain for me today.
I never intend nor wanted that any of these to happen. When I decided to live and be with my boyfriend,
My reason and my intention were just to run away
and escape from my family and the problems that we had.
I had lot of family issues and gone through some experiences
during my childhood.

I never knew at that time that in what I do and with the decisions I made, could only hurt me and my family more.
I never thought that my mistakes and stubbornness would only destroy my life and even my relationship with family.

Believe me when I say that;
It is more wrong going through a relationship and lives together when you are not even ready and having a different reason being together. At that time, I am young and I do not have any idea where I am putting myself into, it is just at that time, for me was, to escape from everything.

Let me tell you that being rebellious in life and having revenge does not
and never will bring any good to us.
It will maybe make you feel better for a few minutes, few days, few weeks,
few months or maybe years;
but I will assure you it will not bring you joy, peace and completeness forever.
I also realized that revenge and having self-pity will just put you down
and could make your life miserable for the rest of your life and make you feel empty and lost forever.

A lot of things that I wish I didn’t do
And hope to make things right and wished that I listened to my parents.
Hoping to bring back the time I’ve lost.
And hope to be able correct the wrong things that I’ve done.
Wish that things could be better.
But I can’t do that anymore, nobody can for we can never rewind our life.
The things that I had done can never be erased nor changed even by time.
The past will remain your past; it will always be part of your life.

But I believe that every one of us deserves chances to pursue make a better life ahead.
A chance to make our life meaningful and worth living for.
A chance that we should all be grateful for.
They say that opportunity knocks only once, so grab it when you can.
We should always ask for forgiveness to the people that you hurt and even those who hurt you.
Most especially to God, who has always been there for you in all that you do and who loves you unconditionally.

I am thankful that God loves me regardless of the wrong things I’ve done,
mistakes I made and with the sins that I committed.
He is still there for me though I had hurt Him and never pray to Him.
I feel His unconditional love and undying forgiveness for whatever I do and whoever I am He still let me have someone that I could share my life with.
Someone who loves me with all that I am and with all that I have, Someone that gives meaning, joy and completeness that I have been longing.

God have given me the most amazing, wonderful gift and greatest blessings to me and that is no other than my better half, my life, my  everything and the reason for making things possible for me.
He is the one who’s always been there for me at any stage of my life.
He is the man that I longed for and dreamed of, the man, who is the reason for all the goodness in my life,
The man who gave his love, understanding, respect and trust for me to be able start my life again.

He is the man who had given so much of himself for me.
He is the reason that I stand from my past.
Who exerted so much effort and had gone through lots of hardships and sacrifices for things to work out and put to place.
He works so hard to be able to fulfill our dreams.
He is the one reason that my life started to have meaning again.
He made my world go round and made me face the world with a smile. He teaches me to be strong, to pick the bits and pieces of myself.
He is the reason that I live again and make believe in true love and fairy tales.

He is the one who teaches and gave me the courage
to face all different challenges that comes in my life. 
He makes me feel safe especially when I’m in his arms.
He makes me feel better whenever I am sad or down.
He also makes me feel beautiful and sexy the way I am.
He teaches me to believe in myself and see myself.

I am so glad and thankful that God had given me the most wonderful, amazing and loving man, “Edwin Geuder”, my husband.
He is the only one that holds the key of my heart.
He is the person that I will forever be thankful for to God and that I will treasure with for as long as I live.
He is the one who make me believed in myself.
He is the one that gives meaning in my life.
He is the greatest gift of God to me.

Remember that every one has its own problems and trials to go through.
Everybody has their own issues to deal with.
Every one of us is experiencing a hell lot of different challenges in our daily lives.
And I have learned to be strong to deal with every trial that is coming to my life.
And learned to be brave to face the problems that come and try to resolve and find a solution for it because I have earned that no one could ever run away from problems, and it will never go away unless you solve it for in time you will still have to deal with it.
My past serves as a lesson for me that I share and tell my kids. It is the way to let them understand and be their guide as they grow.

What I had gone through in my life had been very difficult and overwhelming;
But I realized and believed that God never turns His back on anyone of us whether we are sinful, bad, hard headed and lost; God is always there to help us and enlighten us.
He has plan for each and every one of us, we just learn to listen and wait for everything will fall into place in the time at the right place.

Do not be discourage, hateful, rebellious nor be angry with all the challenges that will ever come to your life for it will make you strong just pray, have faith and believe in God.