I admit I make & made mistakes, I have committed sins, I made wrong moves & wrong decisions in my life. With everything that happens in my life, every wrong, mistakes, sins serves as a lesson for me. I sometimes fall really hard, struggled so hard but here I am now standing and moving forward. I know that what I have done was being Forgiven so I can say that I am completely different me now. I wanted to start my life ahead for my kids & with my kids.
Before I thought that it is better to end all my sufferings by giving an end to my life but I am glad that I didn’t do it because I still have my kids to think of, what will happen to them if I am gone. I know that my 3 kids gre up with their grand parents but still I know & I feel that being a mother & a mother’s love is so different with anyone else. I love my kids & I am so glad I have them in my life, they maybe the result of my mistakes in the past but I am not regretful because they are my gift, they are the ones who make me stand, fight & to go forward with my life. Every time I look at them, I can see hopes…
No one can judge anyone of their wrong doings coz no one of us is clean…. Whatever happens it happens, don’t look back to it hence look forward to the good, bright future & think positive.
I believe everything happens for a reason & I have learned that no matter how much love you love a person, how long you have been together, how much you both gone through together, when it is wrong, it is wrong & still a sin. You could never have anyone that does not really belong to you specially if the person was married to someone else….
The only thing I wanted to say is that we all have choices in life, whether wrong or right, it is us who make it, but remember that in all what we do good or bad, there will be something in return, it may not be now, tomorrow but it in time it will.
I am now looking forward to a better future with my kids for God had given me a man who loves & accepted me, my kids & my past; a man who makes my dream came true, a man with whom I will be building my future with, a man who embraces everything in me and he is my HUSBAND.....
God is so good for I know that He had given me my husband to be able to stand again and this time with my husband who will help me and with God in our midst I know that we can go through everything & nothing that we couldn't do for we know that God is always there to lead us in our ways to a brighter future......
